So I had a HUGE moment of enlightenment today
Currently I for a fact know that I’m wrestling with these feelings of fulfillment. I just graduated and I’m still trying to figure out life, what makes me happy, if I made the right decision.
Im constantly wondering what next step I need to take. New job? Relocate? Anything!?
And I quieted my thoughts by saying regardless of what I do I will never be fulfilled because that’s what life is about and the theories I have been taught in school.
So I did try to ignore these thoughts, UNTIL my psychology degree started to go to work.
This morning I just realized, I keep having the same 2 dreams. They’re about me being scared to go to prison and me physically fighting people.
Although, I’m not all into interpreting stuff I found it pretty interesting what those themes mean.
Prison: feelings of imprisonment, feeling stuck and incapable moving, trapped, restricted, wanting freedom
Physical fights: feelings of conflicts, inner turmoil, there is a problem in your life to solve
And while I am not someone who is into reading too much into things, I find it so interesting how connected my emotions and body are. And regardless of what you hide and ignore, the body never lies.
At this point, I’m still wondering what I’m searching for? What do I do to address this feelings and thoughts?
It’s so hard to describe these thoughts to my friends because when I tried, someone asked what’s wrong with me. I don’t think anything is wrong with me and I’m not depressed. I’m just not content, yet?